Towers

Sometimes I just blame life, blame others way too much when in actual fact it's always been my fault. Can never understand why I can't be happy with what I have now, thing is- I don't even remember when I was last happy. And it's so sad, why is it so hard to be happy? I just life to go slower, but in me everything goes way too fast and I'm tired of picking myself up. I'm tired of blaming everyone and myself. I just want to be proud and happy.